As I continued reading Finish by Jon Acuff, I had a lightbulb moment where I connected his points about perfectionism with some insights on risk-taking I learned about in Thinking Fast and Slow by Daniel Kahneman.
Kahneman explains that CEOs and other business leaders encourage risk-taking because they know that risk is necessary for higher returns and they're OK spreading it among their teams. The individual business leaders under them, on the other hand, are risk averse because failing as an individual feels like complete failure. So, their interests are opposed -- the CEO wants risk and is OK if a few of the leaders fail while taking risks, but the leaders avoid risk because they don't want to be the dummy who messed up.
Is it weird that I feel like I'm doing something scandalous?
I guess that's the power of Apple's marketing machine. I recently switched to a Pixel 2 XL, and I can't shake the feeling that I'm doing something dangerous or immoral. It's like one day someone is going to see my new phone and I'll have to make up some crazy story about how I found it on the street and adopted it out of pity like a stray dog.
But the real reason is I got sick of Apple's crap.
I have never considered myself a perfectionist.
In fact, I always thought of myself as near the opposite -- failing to stick with things long enough to give them polish or even finish them at all.
But right now I'm reading Finish by Jon Acuff, and it's challenging my understanding of perfectionism.
You ever had a favorite shirt that eventually just didn't fit right? Maybe the it shrank (or you grew...). I've had several pieces of clothing like that over the years, and it's really frustrating. I'm the type of person that likes to wear clothes until they have holes and my wife throws them away when I'm not looking.
I've been struggling for the past few months about what to do with my podcast. Nothing felt right. It was something that fit so well at first, but now with a lot of changes in my life (a toddler, new role at work, and more) it just hasn't felt right.
I was driving to work, minding my own business, when it hit me right between the eyes -- I'm guilty of a big scary thing called "dehumanization."
It happened while I was listening to The Marie Forleo Podcast, which a friend had recommended. In the episode, Marie interviews sociologist and author Brené Brown.